Friday, February 20, 2009

Letter to GG: Stupid is as stupid does

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Jim Yu <jimdyu@gmail.com>
Date: Fri, Feb 20, 2009 at 10:13 PM
Subject: Stupid is as stupid does
To: info@gg.ca


Excellency:

As you may recall, I wrote you a letter in early December when prime minister Stephen Harper approached you for permission to prorogue the Parliament. Aside from the standard acknowledgement email I received on that same day, I have yet to hear anything from your office.

A lot of people wondered how Mr. Harper convinced you to prorogue the Parliament. I have no doubt that his pitch centered around my file, probably before you had a chance to see my letter. Indeed, as your spokeswoman said just before President Barack Obama's visit to Ottawa, Rideau Hall had been "in the loop" for a while.

Yes, yesterday's historical event in Ottawa prompted me to write you again. No, I am not pressing for a reply from Your Excellency. As is with the vast majority of the writings I put on the Internet in the past four and a half years, this letter is intended for the information of the Canadian people, who have "never failed to amaze me".

I chose to address the letter to Your Excellence because you were just as significant a part of the historical event yesterday as President Obama. I fully agree with you that Mr. Obama's arrival at the White House was a major step for all of humanity. You may not have known this, but he represented hope for me, too, when I was incarcerated in psychiatric hospital, and later, rooting for him in extremely difficult situations during the presidential election. As such, I was elated to see one black head of state walking together with another black representative of a head of state at the Ottawa airport. The picture would give millions of people around the world the hope they, just like I, desperately needed.

At the same time, a profound sense of sadness engulfed me because I knew that the picture did not fully reflect the racial realities of North America. Please allow me to be frank. As the title of the most recent column by Margaret Wente indicated, President Obama's visit to Canada was at least partly to prop up the political establishment here in connection to my file. As my blogs demonstrated, my problem is indeed with the establishment, or as your spokeswoman learned, what I called "people in the loop", the group typically most resistant to change and progress. If and when my story becomes known to the Canadian people, it is the establishment who would lose their credibility and privilege. The Canadian society as a whole, on the other hand, would only become better.

It is thus in Canada's interest for my story to be told. And it should have been told years ago. Unfortunately, our establishment uses "national interest" as sort of a code word for their self-interest to fool the public. Just take a look at the first interview Mr. Michael Ignatieff gave to Don Newman of CBC Politics program immediately after he became the sole contender for the leadership of the Liberal party. Why did they have to wink to each other talking about such lofty topic as "national interest"? No wonder the Liberals had become the de facto coalition with the ruling Conservatives. No wonder Mr. Ignatieff used such colorful language as "a hole in the head" to describe the need for a February election. No wonder there was such a burst of violence in Greater Vancouver after his comments. And I bet it will not be a wonder if I soon become just another statistic in this strings of shooting deaths. (Perhaps to send me a message, one of the shootings happened at a place I had passed through just a few hours before. And I disliked very much some of the people hanging around my building lately. Not to mention helicopters followed me almost daily this past couple of weeks.)

In connection to Mr. Obama's visit, the establishment also talked about the Canada-U.S. relations as if I was against it. This could not be further from the truth. Ever since I became aware that I was being considered for a leadership position in China years ago, I had been extremely cautious with my actions here. As I said previously, "the last thing I wanted was to be seen as someone who either causes worsening of Canada-U.S. relations, or challenges U.S. interest on its turf."

Not only in words, but also in deeds, including those in my private life. That's why I had not actively sought a relationship here, even though my solitude only added to my hardship. Even with chance encounters where mutual attraction was obvious - and there were many - I typically refrained from making a move, until very recently. (My usual obtuseness applies, too.)

And here comes the most horrible news of all. I believe I had been drugged by the governments as early as in the final period of the U.S. presidential election. And, I don't know how to put it, whatever the chemical/drug was/is, it affected my sex drive.

At the end of last October, when former President Bill Clinton campaigned for the then Senator Obama, he said: "We need a president who wants to understand and who can understand. … Yes, [Mr. Obama] can." At that time, I sensed that Mr. Clinton was cracking nuts of my blog Untitled, perhaps giving it a political or nuclear interpretation. What I didn't realize was Mr. Clinton's underlying sexual tone.

As I look back, it was indeed around that time that I first experienced decreased sex drive. I did not consciously pay attention to it at that time because I never had. However, as the decreased sex drive lasted into December, I started to wonder why.

In my December 25 blog, I mentioned Mr. Clinton's campaign rhetoric. From the reactions I got, I realized the sexual tone in his speech and became highly suspicious that there were video surveillance inside my home and I had very likely been drugged by the governments. (Later, Mr. Harper cracked nuts with the word "stimulus". Margaret Wente picked it up in her January 27 Globe column I'm feeling so very stimulated!.) That's the reason I deliberately aimed to publishing my next blog on January 11. I really really wished I had not been involved in politics. I mean, I experienced torture, assault, attempted assassination before. But this was punching below the waistline, literally, and even without my knowledge.

Some people called me stupid for not getting on the news yesterday. Perhaps. Indeed, I had been called the same name for not getting on the news before Mr. Obama pushed through his stimulus bill through congress last week. What can I say? As the hero in one of my favorite movies says, stupid is as stupid does.

I'll let people be the judge. And I hope you will, too.


Sincerely,


Jim Yu